How many times can I talk about the awful winter that may never end? Well, there was this post and this post, too. Everywhere I go people talk about this dreadful cold and snow that just won’t go away. And when people aren’t talking about it, I can tell they feel it. Generally, I see a lot of people complaining more. Not always about the weather, but everyone seems to have an overall negative attitude about life right now. I get it. I totally do. It’s hard for me to feel excited or even happy about life right now. There are sparks of happiness and fun, but overall it’s a dark cloud. I’m pulled in a lot of directions right now – my family, my home, my job, my team, a board, a charity event, and somewhere in that mix I think I’m supposed to find time for friends. I can’t think of a single one of those things that don’t feel completely overwhelming right now. I’m trying to be everything to everyone and have lost control over all of it, including myself. I want to put more into all of the things but don’t have the time or the energy. I know it’s a phase and I know it would be easier if I wasn’t waking up in the middle-of-the-night to take care of a baby. But, those things are happening so I can’t dwell too much on it. Life is just hard now. The first thing to give up is always myself. Time to myself to do things I enjoy, like reading, or writing, or hanging out with friends. My mind is constantly focused on the thing I just left or the place I’m going next. When I have a few minutes to sit down, I have no idea what to focus on. I’m like Maximus trying to put his pajamas on. Almost every night I say, “Maximus focus. Sit down so we can put on your pajamas.” And he bounces around his room getting distracted by legos and water and then falls on my lap. That’s what I feel like I’m doing every day of my life. Bouncing around from one bright, shiny object to the next.
I get really excited every night when I realize it’s still light out at 6 pm. It gives me hope that spring and summer will get here {eventually}. And I have a lot of faith in spring and summer. If it were a person, there’s no way it could live up to my expectations. But, being the warm, sunshiny season that it is supposed to be, we shouldn’t have any problems. Sometimes I spend those few minutes sitting down dreaming of being outside. Without snow. Green grass. Clear sidewalks. Jackets. Strollers. Soccer balls. Baseball gloves. Dirty boys. Grilling. It’s going to be AM-A-ZING!
It’s March and we’ve turned the clocks ahead. With how busy my life is, it’s only a matter of time before it’s nice out. I’ve just got to find a way to remind myself of that every day when I’m feeling frustrated and overwhelmed. How are you dealing with the winter blues?
