Insomnia

Insomnia. Words flying around my head. Blog posts. Text messages. Conversations. Emails. Work. Vacation ideas. Decorating ideas. Home projects. Things for the family to do.

Insomnia is real bad lately. Not just a night here or there. It’s EVERY night. I’m in a vicious cycle of sleeping between 2-6 am. A couple of times a week I fall asleep around midnight. Those are good nights. On the one hand, it’s fine that I don’t fall asleep early because I can sleep in. But, the dark hours aren’t very fun. The tossing and turning. The flying words. Endless attempts to try to find a comfortable position while I lay on my back. {I’m a tummy sleeper.}

My insomnia / sleep schedule / life lately has screwed up everything. I can’t fall asleep. I can’t wake up. I can’t think coherent thoughts during the day. My mind doesn’t stop turning off when the lights go out. It’s a vicious cycle and I don’t know how to break it! Going to bed a little earlier doesn’t work because I lay there tossing and turning regardless of the start time. I don’t know how I’m going to get back on the right schedule when I get to re-join society. My best hope is that I’ll be so physically exhausted from being able to get off the couch.

Yah, insomnia!

What do you do to break insomnia? That doesn’t involve getting up. 🙂 

 

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No more words

As I try to fall asleep each night, my brain runs a million miles an hour. I write blog post after blog post. I compile long to do lists. I am so productive as I try to fall asleep. So productive that I can’t fall asleep. {AH! Just remembered that I wrote an insomnia post in my head.}

I wake up the next morning and I have zero words. I have zero motivation to do anything on the lists. {All are possible from the couch.} Everything seems to take SO much energy. Or, I can’t do something because I don’t have the right tools on the couch. I don’t have a pen or my credit card.

The awake hours are meant to accomplish things. Why am I procrastinating so much that it’s screwing up my sleep schedule?!