If I’ve learned anything in life, it’s that the world is full of unknowns. From what my toddler is going to act like when he wakes up to how a friend will treat you. I will admit that I can get wrapped up in indecisiveness. I try not to, but sometimes it plaques me. I try not to spend too much time over analyzing life. I’m married to an engineer and I spend enough time coaxing him to make a decision. 😉 When it comes to the big things, I’m not as steady as I’d like to be. I like to be confident in my decisions and in who I am. Sometimes I get wrapped up in the this could send me down this path for the REST OF MY LIFE things. I’ve been stewing on something for a while now. Something that’s life changing.
One day I was headed down a path. I basically knew exactly where I was going. I didn’t fully know the route, but I knew what the outcome was. I was 98% sure it was the right thing to do and more importantly, that I wanted it. Then suddenly I looked around and realized that I’d forgotten all about it. Without even knowing it, I’d moved on. I’d made my decision and it was the opposite of what I had intended. I had gotten lost in the shuffle of life and I’d just moved. The thing is, I’m ok with it. I’m a little bothered that I almost didn’t even realize my path had gone in the opposite direction. If it was something I was about to do, why did I not even notice that I had moved in the opposite direction? But maybe that’s ok. Maybe it’s a good thing. I’m trying not to look too much into it. I’m trying to remind myself that things happen for a reason. I was in a limbo stage for a long time. I was trying to decide if I wanted to go left or right. Without even knowing it, I turned. I have no idea if I’ll look back with regret or if this is the right thing. I can only continue to move forward because, right now, this is my path. I might have to adjust along the way and figure out the best route, but at least I made a decision. I can move forward now and I can put all my energy into it. That’s the only way I know how to make this successful.
Have fun reading between the lines of this one. 🙂 I don’t mean to be cryptic but some things aren’t for the Internet to see. We’ve all been in a position where we don’t exactly know what to do. I’ve been in that spot, but now I’m choosing to follow my gut and see where it leads me. And I’m going to enjoy the break from all the wondering and worry!